Won't fall over.

I know now, somehow, how it's like to be in your shoes. To be turned down by people you expect to be true. To be pressured because the circumstances you go through cannot be understood but by you alone. To think unceasingly of how to get through every tough situation when there seems nothing to squeeze out of everything around you, and that one person who used to tell you to just live without worries in mind gives up on you too. And on top of all that, to be strong. For us who know but do not feel the impact of what crashes through all of us. For us who you allow not to care at all because you want us not burdened. Because you want us to feel that though things are not alright, we can be. And so it seems to me that things become fine just easily. And maybe that can be. Or that really is. But now I see that the details of it, the seconds that lie between the hard time and that glorious moment when all is resolved, are hard and painful.

I wonder how you manage not just to look okay, but to feel that way too. How your initial reaction always is to laugh, and how in such laughter you take the sting out of the most crushing words and actions. How you can forgive and forget and be healed in so little time. How you can let go of anger and revenge and hatred, if you have any, so easily. And I wish people and life can be as kind to you. Or to me. Because you teach me everyday to be just like who you are - strong and happy and full of life. I want to say you, at least, do not deserve what you've been through. Or that you deserve more than what you have. But I take all that back. Who am I to know better. Besides, it's the hardest blows that allow you to be molded. Look at what you are now - you are more beautiful than what you've ever been.

I know now too, though just as not perfectly, how to have faith when it is hardest to. How to hold on to the wisdom that lies in what unfolds every minute, to the hand that moves through each moment. How to wait for what is in store. How to know and believe that there is more than what there is in the present. How to have hope beyond what can be done. How faith can alter the impossible. Yours have shown me.