Boo.

And then the tiny speaker spat the words into my ears -- "Today is gonna be the day blah-blah-blah back to you." They weren't the ones I exactly wanted to hear.

For the nth time I tried to shake off my uncertainty using a song. (If Phantom Planet's played next, it's for real.) Five or so minutes before Oasis turned my disappointed mode on, I turned my logic off. That's just stupid, I know. Perhaps indolence and stupidity just perfectly go together. Lalala.

My life hasn't been monotonous. I'm loving it. There are short idle moments long enough for reveries. If you know what happened to my not so normal life lately, I'm pretty sure you're thinking I'm going through a tough time. I don't know. Perhaps I am. But honestly, I don't think I am. Maybe I'm just not looking at the situation the way others may do. Maybe I've just gotten so used to this that I'm dwelling in the difference I've been hoping I'd find. Maybe, let me emphasize the uncertainty on this thought, I'm growing up. I don't really know. I'm still the biggest brat in my mom and sister's lives. That, I am sure of.

I've been looking forward to going to school. Yey, I'd be back in my system. My second sem schedule is crappy (I have so many vacant periods) but I shall be doing everything I can to fix it. Mwahaha. I do say often in my stat message that I hate CRS. But actually, I'm starting to like it if only for the way I hold my breath upon clicking on the "Enlistment" and "View Grades" links. Haha. Wow. UP's trying to be hi-tech (or however you call it) and I'm laughing at its efforts. Wooshoo.

I don't know what I can use as an excuse for not writing with sense. I guess I've been over my head that for a while I lost appreciation of the details my life has. That can't be, I know. Maybe it's just that a lot of things has been changing and I've been too lazy to keep up. That may explain why I don't see my situation hard for me, perhaps. Man, this is bad.

I'd be fixing my life on Monday. Hahaha. In the meantime, I'd be wasting my time on chocolate marshmallows and rubik's cube and the few emo songs I saved on my phone. And maybe, if I get too sick of those things, I'd make myself dream before sleeping.

Ohh: It's John Paul's birthday on the 18th. Happy, happy birthday, dude! Been missing you! [handshake, rap, looove]