Frapp.

I woke up one morning to a text message that contained such cliche but oh-so-true thought: "If you can feel pain, be happy for it tells you you're alive."

Am I bitter? I am bitter. (And don't you think lying in a blog is just plain stupid?) I am bitter because I know I should've done better. I am bitter because I did not give my best shot. I am bitter because I made myself believe that mediocre is fine when it is not. I am bitter and who's to blame? Ehem, ehem.

At one point I asked myself if I am still the positive me. I used to laugh at my failures and go on with my life. Right now, I don't exactly know if I'm just being too hard on myself or if I'm dwelling too long in the negative side of things. Ohh, this is too heavy to continue.

At one point, I let go. It's never too late to start things over; never too often. I filter the past and take what I need. I'm staying in the bright side.

I sure learned a lot. I learned that listening is important; that you should not put things aside just because of the assurance you get from the fact that they are there; that you should not assume the right to choose what to learn because you don't know what you need and not need to learn. I learned that aiming high is just as crucial as working hard; that you strive in accordance to your goals.

Looking back, 'twas such a learning experience. (Naks. Haha.)

Thanks for the sms, Direk. :P