And so.

So many thoughts right now: So grateful to be surrounded by people who genuinely care for and love me, to be free from heartaches and stress and issues - to be plainly happy and content. So awfully amazed at the strangeness of people's views, of the skewness of their perspective. So full of pieces of advice that do not want to be heard because they will slash and crush, and go against all the words people say and other people agree with. And so, somehow burdened to keep mum. But then again, so untrusting still. Maybe I'm somewhere in the core, but I'm holding things in the surface. I have built a wall.