Lessons learned.

Perhaps the things I ranted about were overrated. Well, definitely not all of them, but maybe the little things that I was finding out I hadn't been able to do lately, those things that I missed so dearly because they were so easy to do before and so hard these days. But this was not what I wanted. I didn't want to put my life on a pause and suddenly have nothing to do but these that I had been hoping to have time for. But maybe this was what I needed. Not because I needed a temporary change. Not because I did need the time I was looking for to do these things. But perhaps because I needed to remember what I really wanted, and how I needed to set aside some things for it. Perhaps I lost focus so I was beginning to notice the sacrifice.

Perhaps I forgot too, Who gets to pull the ropes. I tried fixing with my own hands that I forgot how small and useless they are without guidance, so that at the end of the day I only caused damage. I was holding too many that I let the important ones slip away. I was looking at people and absorbing from their experiences too much that I forgot Someone planned and prepared the whole experience for me already, and made sure it is the best it could be.